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Title: This is How it Works
Fandom: Law and Order: UK RPF
Characters: Jamie Bamber, Freema Agyeman
Pairing: Freema Agyeman/Jamie Bamber
Rating: Adult
Word Count: 5,155
Author's Notes: It was July 24th, 2008, when I first claimed I was going to write this fic.
Disclaimer: This whole thing is LIES.

Another long shower was a good time for Freema to try and convince herself that it was for the best, that she wasn't a romance novel heroine, that she didn't wish Bamber was in the shower with her.

So... Dudes LOVE Space Marines

As some of you may or may not know, I have been collecting/playing Warhammer 40K for about four years. Some of you may even know what Warhammer 40K is. Many of you probably don't. Warhammer is a stupidly expensive tabletop miniature game that requires you to buy, paint, and build many many models before you even start playing. My now-husband has been playing the 40K (aka sci-fi) version of this game since long long before we met (the company, Games Workshop, makes three versions. The other two are the original fantasy version and a Lord of the Ring one). So being the nerdy significant other I am, I started out deciding I was just going to paint a box of models that looked cool, it would help us bond right? Well since then I have been painting and playing (he does the super gluing because I generally just end up attaching the models to my hands instead of themselves) and I now have over $500 worth of Chaos Daemon models. They look pretty good and I do decently playing against my husband and our friends with them. However, every time I buy more models I sort of feel conflicted because there is a lot I hate about Games Workshop as a company.

There are a lot of reasons that Games Workshop is sort of a shitty company. One is that they keep raising their already overpriced models, despite having just posted RECORD PROFIT NUMBERS. When I started playing in spring of 2008, a regular box with ten little plastic troop models was $22. It is now $29 and I expect it will continue to rise every six months to a year as it has over the last four years. People like to justify that the profit comes from their quickly expanding videogame ip... money they make for simply licensing existing ip concepts. But let us admit that there is no way that their costs to make the models have gone up that much, especially since they are now making more and model of the models in plastic instead of metal. And, like any person who has ever taken econ as a senior in high school knows, when prices rise demand goes down. If they dropped their prices even 15% they would probably double the amount they could sell. And the more people get into the miniatures, the more of a built in audience there is for the videogames and the more money they make for free off that. No, its just an elitist and greedy model.

But honestly, this isn't why I feel like a traitor plunking down my money to buy their product. The reason that I feel like that is because they are pretty much the worst kind of nerd culture misogynists. Almost all of their models are male models targeted at a male audience ( Dudes, LOVE Space Marines... seriously HALF of the forces you can play in 40K fall into this exclusively male category) , with a few bikini clad babes thrown into select forces (These are the IMPROVED version). There are a select few exceptions (The Eldar [Spaces Elves] have one elite choice that is female and clothed!) and one time they put out one crappy version of a force called Sisters of Battle, which turned into a mostly male force and now no longer exists pretty much. I play the Chaos Daemon force.. which has one female unit (which is skantily clad but in a somewhat grotesque demonic looking way?) and some that are androgynous. There is also the the Tyranid force, which is insectoid and therefore don't present as male or female. There are a LOT of completely male presented forces including alien races and the "human" force which is called the Imperial Guard, which has a couple of female stand alone models but none in their regular troops nevermind, they discontinued the female model.

Cue the "women just don't buy our stuff" (oh really, maybe that is because you don't seem to want them as customers) or "It would break the lore" (add better lore!) or "it would be too expensive" (Somehow, I can't see how when you make a new model for something not making it exclusively male would be more money). Or you know, how women are oppressing them with their desire to be represented or acknowledged as a customer base, etc.

The local nerd store we go to (not the jerk one in town, the one close by) is probably the most friendly (both in general and towards women gamers) that I have ever been in. The employees and owner always say hi and chat with you. However, the owner has repeatedly responded to my choice of army by commenting on how women seem to always play Daemons or Eldar (wow the two viable armies that have more than one or two female models!) and clearly does not connect those dots whatsoever. And I feel like that is pretty indicative of the problem... in the best case scenarios. Obviously there are worse "stop your whiny bitching/stop girlifying our game/ruining everything forever!!!!" responses.

I am not totally sure what I am going to do. I probably am going to still buy the products to finish my army (SO CLOSE!). However, I do have plans to make an all female army using their Imperial guard rules (and none of their models!) if I can actually find appropriate models from ANY company that aren't super expensive because they are intended to be one model out of a hundred (because Games Workshop is in no way alone in this).

PS. In the Relic made MMO based off their fantasy version, on the Chaos side you could only play a female character if you were a caster or a skanky rogue. Seriously, in 2008/2009 I thought we were past restricting classes/roles based on gender in MMOs!

In conclusion, we love you Bioware?

popping in to say hi

So it is over halfway into February and I haven't posted in quite a while (I did start sort of using Tumblr though... same name there as here).

This year so far I have read 7 books and am not doing that great on any of my resolutions regarding reading. I have read one nonfiction book (and plan to read another three in the near future) but it was by a man (two of the three planned are by women!). Of the two books I have read with students, both were by white men. My pleasure reading was also by a white man (but he was queer so I get point for that in diversity bingo right?). I am currently reading three books by men with my students and a textbook whose author I think is a woman but am not sure.

Work is crazy as always. There is always more to do and never enough time, focus, or energy. I should be looking for a position for next year, in case I don't get to keep this one... but it is really hard to do that while working this job. Also I want to believe that I will get to stay.

I am partway through a fic, but rarely have time to work on it. Still, it is exciting to have written anything at all.

I miss you all.

More for the LJ crowd but also everyone

So after writing for Yuletide for the first time ever, getting super into Sherlock, and just generally missing fandom... I am thinking it is time to reinvest. But I am also thinking it is time to possibly recenter onto Dreamwidth. I have been posting/crossposting from Dreamwidth for at least a year maybe more like two but I didn't bother to really find anyone or anything. No plans to stop crossposting, reading, or allowing comments on LJ but more just increasing reading and interacting on DW. So...

1) If you are on Dreamwidth let me know (I am the same on both sites). You can friend me of just give me your username.
2) What communities should I be reading or what exciting new people should I be following (either on LJ or DW)?
3) Is there something I should be into? (Strong preference for tv show or book series fandoms)


4) Please make ficlet requests. Feel free to ask for anything you think I might be familiar with (or just ask) and I will let you know if I am not. Fandom and character or pairing and any additional elements/details also would be nice.

Two days in a row

Thanks for all the e-hugs and well wishes, friends. They really cheered me up because I love you guys and it is good to be reminded that you are here for me. I would say I am going to start writing more (again) but I know that would end up somehow not happening.

For today I am going to list the books I have read in the first half of 2011:


Deadline (Newsflesh, #2) by Mira Grant
Fledgling by Octavia Butler
Alcestis by Katharine Beutner
Late Eclipses (October Daye #4) Seanan McGuire
The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms (The Inheritance Trilogy, #1) by N.K. Jemisin
Dragonsbane (Winterlands #1) by Barbara Hambly

A Pleasant Enough Way to Pass the Time

Swordspoint by Ellen Kushner
Postmortem, Body of Evidence, and All That Remains (Kay Scarpetta, #1-3) by Patricia Cornwell
Young Miles (Vorkosigan Saga, #3-4; Vorkosigan Omnibus, #2) by Lois McMaster Bujold
Moon Called, Blood Bound, Iron Kissed, Bone Crossed, Silver Borne, and River Marked (Mercedes Thompson, #1-6) by Patricia Briggs

Conflicted Feelings

Omnitopia Dawn (Omnitopia, #1) by Diane Duane
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
Trouble and Her Friends by Melissa Scott
Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler
Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury (re-read)

Do Yourself a Favor and Don't Read These

Serpent's Storm (Calliope Reaper-Jones, #3) by Amber Benson
Street Magic (Black London, #1) by Caitlin Kittredge

Dry Professional Texts

Reading, Writing and Learning in ESL: A Resource Book for Teaching K-12 English Learners (with MyEducationLab) (5th Edition) (with MyEducationLab) (5th Edition) (MyEducationLab Series) Edited by Suzanne F. Peregoy
Educating English Learners: Language Diversity in the Classroom edited by James Crawford
Schooling and Language Minority Students: A Theoretical Framework edited by Carles F. Leyba

Fic: Courtship (Codex Alera: Isana/Doroga)

Title: Courtship
Fandom: Codex Alera
Pairing: Isana/Doroga
Rating: Mature
Word Count: 1931
Written very late for [personal profile] beckyh2112 who asked for "Doroga/Isana. Doroga comes courting the (powerful)(dangerous)(impressive) Aleran widow" during the [profile] alera that was supposed to conclude two months ago.

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Inspired by [personal profile] sophia_helix, An Incomplete List of Things I Call Tiberius That Are Not His Actual Name:
The Worst
Dr. Cuddle/Mr. Bite
The Bug
Jr. Cat

An Incomplete List of Things I Call Cupcake That Are Not Her Name
Prettiest and Best
Your/Her Highness
Your/Her Majesty
Your/Her Grace
Queen of the Gnomes
Most Important
Sr. Cat

Also, Spoiler Alert: Baby Tiger Cub = Ridiculously Cute


I just talked to the head professor for that class I had such issues with last semester and apparently they got rid of the book I hated so much and restructured the points given for papers and the rubric system which I had issues with. On the one hand I am happy that it is getting fixed. On the other hand, paying like $5,000 per course to be a guinea pig gets old. Mostly, smugness of having been right wins out.
So I was looking at Goodreads and thinking about anticipation, and how a new book that comes out gets read immediately in front of the long long queue of existing books I want to get to. Here are books I am looking forward to:

This Year
Mockingjay, Suzanne Collins - August 24th
An Artificial Night, Seanan McGuire - September 7th
Side Jobs: Stories From the Dresden Files, Jim Butcher - October 24th

In Future Years
A Late Eclipse, Seanan McGuire - March 1st, 2011
Ghost Story, Jim Butcher - March 29th, 2011
Deadline, Mira Grant - May, 2011
Blackout, Mira Grant - 2012
A Dance with Dragons, George R.R. Martin - Probably Never

What are you looking forward to?

(BTW Cow: Thanks!)


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